The Red Hand Files Index - addiction

My life is a mess. I am a drug addict now for fifteen years. I am worried about giving it up because I am an artist, a painter, and I don’t want to lose my edge. I can’t create without it.

THOM @ Issue no. 234

How do you forgive yourself for the horrible things you did to someone else in the throes of addiction?

MATT @ Issue no. 46

I’m originally Afro-Caribbean man from London living in Melbourne for the last 12 yrs as I met an Australian in Vauxhall, London, fell in love and here I am separated (amicably) with 2 lovely children, who I constantly remind it’s Football NOT soccer! I digress. [ ] 
As I write this, I had a question about you being a white male and if that has allowed you to navigate your life & experiences, but now I’m thinking I should ask about what I should do about my ICE addiction! I’m currently managing it all as I work as a social worker & holding down a relationship but the wheels are in danger of coming off! Anyway, pick which ever question you like!

KEVIN @ Issue no. 340

My mom’s an addict, and her motto is “set your world on fire, seek those who fan the flames” and I think she struggles with banality. Sometimes I don’t blame her, we all just want to feel alive. And there’s no way cold plunges are gonna scratch that itch for her. How do you even get through to someone like that? Don’t we all occasionally have the urge to hurl ourselves towards self destruction to varying degrees, just to escape the narratives we built ourselves into?

HEIDI @ Issue no. 375